Aku bengang….Is this somekind of silly joke,What kind of sick mind do u have…??Ini bukannya percutian 6h 5 mlm ke Disneyland atau honeymoon ke Wikiki Island….please can somebody explain what the **** were these people thinking about….???

Yup aku sakit..n theoretically aku jadi emo….but I just don’t get it…Why all of a sudden, ada org dari office yg diarahkan utk follow aku nxt time aku buat kimo….. tentu aku boleh fikirkan yg positif…mereka nak cuba memahami condition orang2 ‘terpilih’ macam aku…tapi aku x fikir ada kes dalam dunia ni yg sampai ke tahap ni….This is more of mistrust issue for me….

All I want is to be normal again, to be healthy…to be able to perform my job, to do things that I used to do….Takde orang kat dunia ni yang mahukan sakit seperti aku…demi tuhan…aku tak pernah suka2 mintak cuti , it’s always the doctor’s decision…even the doctor was surprised when I only asked for 2 days off for my 1st chemo session…

Bagi sesiapa yg pernah melalui ‘jalan’ ni..tentu biasa dengan rasa mual & loya , x lalu makan, kepala kebas,gelap mata hingga ke tahap tepaksa berpaut pd dinding utk bergerak,demam on & off yg menukarkan anda menjadi manusia yg lemah & mudah dijangkiti penyakit sebaran…

So if you think this is just 1 of our attempt to get your sympathy or just another excuses to get away from our normal life routine, think again….sure for you it’s just a word that means nothing ‘chemo’?just a medical terms…For us it does mean something…pure torture, nightmare…that we’d really wished to be the first & last for each session…we’d do anything to get out from this rut if only we could….i mean we’d trade anything in this world to get out of this toture…

Tapi x semua orang akan belajar memahami keadaan ‘kita’…so be prepared…aku harap aku akan terus hidup untuk bercerita & menyedarkan….